To my son:

I held you in my arms only for a short time,

but I hold you in my heart until your in my arms again.

We will always be together my baby I want you to know,

and your with me everyday as your looking at me below.

Our time together in this life was much to short and its not fair

I keep screaming and crying,

ITS NOT FAIR

I want to watch you grow,

I want to be there to pick you up when you fall.

I want to feel the pride a mother should for her son.

I'll never see you smile or hear your laugh.

I'll never hear you talk or cry.

Your first crawl, first steps, first words, first everything,

we both missed out on them,

you and I

I picture what you would be like,

Would you be stubborn like me, probably.

You always stayed still when someone wanted to feel you move in my tummy,

and moved when they pulled away,

you funny little guy.

I picture what you would grow up to be,

what you would look like.

Your little chin, nose and mouth just like mine.

Your daddy's big bright eyes would sure grab the ladies like they did me.

Right from the start you were a fighter.

So strong,

hanging on to the troubles I was going through and not letting go.

Your a trooper!

You always had your fists up just like your dad,

raring to go.

So that I do know,

I know you were and are still strong.

I will live by your strength Dune.

Its not fair for me but I know your happy and in a better place.

I just want you happy my darling.

Mommy will be ok.

I would give anything to kiss your tinny face right now.

To hold you and tell you how much I love you,

to tell you everything's going to be ok.

I think your the one holding me now,

and you are telling me everything will be ok.

Thank you Dune,

thank you for coming into my life.

Thank you for showing me so much and for what your going to show me.

Your perfect to me in every way.

My perfect little guy